Thursday, August 5, 2010
Are We Having Fun?
When are we going to start having fun again? When I was ten, I was told - "Just wait until you are a teenager, you won't believe how much fun you'll have". (And, wow - it was a blast.) Then everyone said, "College will be the best days of your life." And, they were right. I had a large time. After that, "Boy, your twenties are so much fun." And, they were. And, don't get me wrong I've enjoyed my thirties and forties. But where's the party now? It's like Yogi Beara said, "It ain't over, 'til it's over" and the fat lady ain't sung. In fact, as far as I'm concerned, she hasn't even made it to the rehearsal hall.
But what happened to feeling carefree without the help of chemicals? Or, just spending the day doing something that I do not have to justify to anyone, or worse yet, file a flight plan. Or, deciding on Thursday, that a three day road trip with some old friends you haven't seen in a while would be a blast and just calling them up to see if they were free - right then. (And, knowing they would say yes, because if they had plans, they'd change them.) Or, accepting an invitation without looking at your calender.
Some folks, would say, "You grew up, that's what happened. Welcome to the real world." Well, if that's the case, I'm ready to bail. I don't remember this part on my dance card. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not ready to do something nuts like get a tattoo or go vegan. I just want to wake up in the morning with the thought that something fun might happen today. (Or it may not, but there is the possibility.) I want some control back in my life. Control to lose control and not have to answer for it.
My youngest daughter is famous for questioning anything I start to do that she feels is "younger" than my generation. "You can't do that." "Why not?" "Because, you're fifty and people your age just don't." "Just don't do what." "Just act your age and don't embarrass me." Now the truth comes out. It's a conspiracy. I'm a mother, a woman of a certain age. 'Having fun' would not fit the profile or the image. God forbid I enjoy life on my own terms.
Are we having fun yet? No, but I haven't given up. (Just keep that fat lady off the stage.)